In search of the right girl…

ha ha… one of my friend recently refused by the girl of her dreams (his first love) says its hard to tell about a girl… they are something else from above and something else from inside… another friend of mine being in a number of relations (currently single) says you have to be an actor when in a relation… real love and all is crap… another friend of mine was rejected by the girl he proposed in class 9th… she said i lik phlana typs of guys… sadness for life for him… no more into girls… one of my best friend online (a girl) was in a deep relation with a guy but later she realized he was using her for money for drugs… now she just want to get married (aged 24) asap for the family… my best eating friend (in hostel) used to like a girl in school but could not ever dare to propose her… the girl is currently in new zeal-land and one of his best friend… another adult friend of mine (a lady) got married at the age of 18 to the charming prince and after 6 years of marriage it was on the verge of divorce… another friend of mine ECE is trying on a girl from Hoshiarpur (same class)… He is deep love with her but could not dare to talk to her even though he keep yapping here and there with her… One of my close relatives (a girl) suggest me not to propose and end up a relationship and be at least good friends…

one of the girl from daviet on whom I had a crush feels inquisitive of being in a relation but is still out of this trap (ha ha so u can guess she refused me 😦  )…  I use to like a girl in school but she was the gf of Mr. Don of our class… Another girl I felt attracted to was GF2 of same Mr. Don… sadness… I use to like a girl in my coaching… things were going good between her and me but she din’t seem my kind a girl… I was trying on one girl of my class when in second year… I was given a challenge to seduce her… But later I realized I was not much interested in these fucking activities… Then I was talking to another girl of my class… I felt there was a little chemistry… I tried to take her on a movie with me(with hidden intentions of being with her)… thing were getting good… but then i never felt like talking to her in real life… slowly ignorance and then finally silence… actually she was too shy to be the kind of girl i was seeking for… and she use to hate the word LOLZ and so eeyac that was not my typs… my summer break online friend… umm she was amazing… ha ha the future porn-star i would say… 16 and no virgin but damn sexy at times :p///… another girl i saw in a bus when traveling in cdg… mind blowing… seriously i felt in love with her in first sight… damn she had a bf… sadness…

From the past to the present moving to the future… no idea where my dream girl is… no idea is being single better… why isn’t anybody happy of all i know… why are the one in deep long relationship not free to share their success saga with me… Well well the story continues…

Recently I found another girl at least for the time being… i have been refused by her twice… her past is totally weird (nd eeyac typs) in one perception and amazing in other…  learning a lil about her past i learned never to get into someone’s past and specially in a girl’s past… she had like 3 bfs nd wht nt… it seriously freaks you out… further never talk to the girl’s ex he is more like gossip monger playing with words than anything else… also never dare to be a part of girls confusion… if you can solve it you would feel like heaven else you would end up into hell…So its time to answer the question…

Is she the right girl?? Ha ha seriously don’t know… she want to be free like a lonely bird while I want to fly with her in every mess she goes in… I am damn clear with my concepts and perception while she was born confused (at least this is what my instinct says)… we both dream… but she just enjoy her dreams and keep real life away while my goal is to execute all my dreams in real life… I am always upto starting a conversation with her while I don’t remember when was the last time she did… She seems to be lot moody while I am down to earth(though i also have a mood variation but i can control to an extent)… I think so much that I am writing this article while she thinks only when she is hurt badly… While I speak every emotion straightforwardly she always hide it very manipulatively… She loves reading novel while I hate it badly but I am ready to write my own…

Alone in “THE COMPUTER CENTER” with 3 air conditioners and 10 fans I wonder is she the right girl… Alone with 24 computer with I guess 15 working I wonder should I believe my instincts?… Even with all power, possesions, brain and guts its hard to decide what your next move should be… Even having “The Casanovic Diary” don’t make a difference…

Am I clingy? Sometimes I wonder… Am I a looser? Sometimes I wonder…  I love John Mayer… His music gives me the perfect mood to write this article with an Shakespeare Essence… At least this is what I call…

Is she even interested in me or is it like “Main haath dho kar peche pda hun uske”… Should I try hell hard or give up…

Sometimes I wonder… Sometimes I do… Ha ha okies many a times I wonder…

Even I take a hypothetical  case that I get into a relationship with her… whats next… would  I be able to keep fun forever… I don’t even know if even do I sound fun to her… Am I even witty in my conversation?… Would I even able to provide her the kind of adventure she is always seeking for… Is she the girl I am seeking for taking with me on my crazy venture…

Sometimes I wonder… Sometimes I do…

Well every question sounds meaningless if she feel like vomiting when she sees me… Every thought and effort is worthless if she feel frustrated in my company… So may be the answer of her being the right girl depends on to what extent am I the right for her… Further am I kinda guy what she want or am I kinda what she needs or am I kinda who should stay far far away…

Ha ha reminds me of Far Cry…

Sometimes I wonder… Sometimes I do…

Pooja Preety just called me… They are really good girls… At least they compliment when I am looking good…

In past few days I feel this girl less as a girl and more a questionnaire… ha ha lolz…

My instinct instigate a feeling… a magical chemistry and insist me to keep trying on her till she gets ready to ride on my chopper to the adventure island(no idea if this happens for how long would it remain for)…

But on other hand my brain tells me move on because Casanova was never meant for one girl… He is always suppose to move on…

So may be the question is what should I go with my instincts or my brain…

Instincts ask me to have faith(which don’t need a reason) that she is the right girl… While my brain ask me to move only if u have a belief (which need a reasoning which is not in this case.. at least i cant find it)…

Sometime I feel she feel I am too nice… But if I have to rape a girl to be bad enough I better being misunderstood… I did things seriously damn bad in my life which I myself don’t want to remember… for some I am still paying and for some I have to pay all my life… With freedom comes responsibilities finally i realized…

EnD of story with questions, questions and questions… ha ha lolz

I am not writing this article for anyone to read… Though I would love people to read this page of my life and comment… I am writing this article because this is my fucking blog and I made it for writing about ups n downs of life and not publishing PTU results… lolz… Today the king even having so much power, possession, big network and experience is confused about his next move in life… And this is something historic which should be posted so that I, my children(if any) and my grand children(if children hav children)  and my grand grand children(if my blog don’t expire till then) can read this and laugh how crazy this was…

One day I would get answers of all the above and the other unsaid questions and then I may write another post telling about how much different they were from what I thought… One day some day the search of the right girl would end… it should end… GoD save the Search…

Relative Motion to Eternity…                 // i hope this is not copyrighted 😉

ha ha lolz..

GooD Night…

Eskimos calling…

Meet you all in neXt life…

Adios!

Best of Regards,

Utsav tHe Great

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6 responses

  1. mast he….!!

  2. it was worth reading. but u didn’t mention my story!!!

    1. Utsav Sabharwal | Reply

      ha ha may b some other time… in some other article… who knows.. lolz…

  3. lol. who’s the girl ?

    1. umm name doesn’t matter… 😉 the article is not abt girl bt me dude…

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